Your Already Damaged Soul?
by Chairy Girl
The pain! The drama! The agony! And now, the stunning conclusion….
I’m sorry I’ve been so weird lately
I really miss you, it sucks how attached to people I get because I guess I get so attached that I scare people off and then the person that I got so emotionally close to gets uncomfortable or something or bored and then gets rid of me like a piece of trash. I’ve felt horrible for these days that we’ve been apart. I haven’t been able to think about anything really but seeing you while being preoccupied with doing absolutely nothing. I hope you feel the same way, but know that you most likely do not. I’ve felt ill and I guess people can see that because everyone has been asking me what’s wrong, I didn’t know what it was at the time, but I realize now that it is because I am empty. I feel I’ve had a piece of me ripped away and now I am left with an open wound vulnerable to the world’s pathogens, to eat away at my already damaged soul. I’ve endured pain like this before, so you needn’t worry, and I say this as if you would care, again hoping that you would. I realize after reading this that your reaction will probably be very angry because of this letter, for whatever reasons, of which I am unaware of now, and will most likely further damage the union between us; but I assure you that I write this in an attempt to maybe convince you to reconsider the actions taken place. I realize you think that it is what I wanted etc. like you had said even though I denied it, but I can not and will not stop thinking about you so if we can at least get together to talk about it, I would be extremely grateful, and just overjoyed to see you and hear your voice.
Please email me back, or call me when you get back in town.
p.s. how come I didn’t know you were going out of town?