Your Already Damaged Soul?

by Chairy Girl

The pain! The drama! The agony! And now, the stunning conclusion….

hi

I’m sorry I’ve been so weird lately

I really miss you, it sucks how attached to people I get because I guess I get so attached that I scare people off and then the person that I got so emotionally close to gets uncomfortable or something or bored and then gets rid of me like a piece of trash. I’ve felt horrible for these days that we’ve been apart. I haven’t been able to think about anything really but seeing you while being preoccupied with doing absolutely nothing. I hope you feel the same way, but know that you most likely do not. I’ve felt ill and I guess people can see that because everyone has been asking me what’s wrong, I didn’t know what it was at the time, but I realize now that it is because I am empty. I feel I’ve had a piece of me ripped away and now I am left with an open wound vulnerable to the world’s pathogens, to eat away at my already damaged soul. I’ve endured pain like this before, so you needn’t worry, and I say this as if you would care, again hoping that you would. I realize after reading this that your reaction will probably be very angry because of this letter, for whatever reasons, of which I am unaware of now, and will most likely further damage the union between us; but I assure you that I write this in an attempt to maybe convince you to reconsider the actions taken place. I realize you think that it is what I wanted etc. like you had said even though I denied it, but I can not and will not stop thinking about you so if we can at least get together to talk about it, I would be extremely grateful, and just overjoyed to see you and hear your voice.

I’m sorry.

Adam

Please email me back, or call me when you get back in town.

p.s. how come I didn’t know you were going out of town?