Grrr – March 27th, 2003

by Bing Futch

So there it is, the truth is staring right at you in a way that you never figured it would come. Downright staggering, this revelation. And what are you to do about it? Well sire, I’ll tell you, if it involves anyone from your past, they just might be the best critic of your life as it stands now. After all, they knew you once – didn’t they? In a certain way, they possess the road map of your life and have existed as some of the many stops that you’ve made along your merry way. These exquisite travels are never for a loss – they almost always come around to make your future sojourns all that much more meaningful. If you’re of the proper mind to accept the teachings of this life.

It’s 6:47 a.m. in the morning and I’ve just come in from the Times Out There. It feels like I’ve been dealt a winning hand with someone’s sticky peanut-buttery fingers all over it. A good friend of mine warned me to “be good” and I somehow mistook her admonition as a sign that I had impure thoughts running through my overheated and over-stimulated brain. “Are you feeling guilty?” she chided playfully. My fiancee’ had long since departed the scene for the greener pastures of home and I knew that my post-gig afterglow was far from descending into the safety and security of home, where even more extravagant battles would float their way to the surface in a post-gig afterglow. The Yin and Yang of things decides that no one way will be easily traversed without resistance or complications – we don’t choose this life because we desire a breezy resolution. We live because we need to know. We need to know what is pain, what is sorrow, what is joy and what is victory. We need to have the opportunity to compare the highs and lows, to serve as the litmus test as much as we represent the lengths to which we’ll go to take or make a stand.

Such is the stuff of relationships.

“bfsig”